Billie Lourd is acknowledging the dark feelings of grief on the eighth anniversary of her momCarrie Fishersdeath.
It has been 8 years since my mom died.
As my son would say Thats a lot!
Carrie Fisher and Billie LourdChelsea Lauren/Variety/Penske Media/Getty Images
I always dread this day, Lourd wrote on Instagram.
I spend so much time leading up to it thinking about how awful Im going to feel.
And my dread is usually right.
I woke up this morning with a dark cloud over me.
Her death anniversary is like an emotional tropical storm.
There are no rainbows without rain.
That describes how I feel today perfectly.
And I am actually a better dancer with my limp, she wrote.
My grief has given me a deeper appreciation for all the little moments of life.
So today I am griefful (griefy but grateful).
Sending my love to everyone out there who needs it, she ended the note.
It wasnt until middle school that I decided to watch it on my own accord.
They couldnt be talking about her.
