It feels like a circus, she tellsRolling Stonein her distinctive, high-pitched voice.
All around her, there are family photos and reminders of people who love her.
Theres a sign across from her that reaffirms this.Family: A little bit of crazy.
Ken Uker and Gypsy Rose at their baby showerErin Alleman of Ink and Honey Photography
A little bit of loud.
Since she was released last year, the attention has been constant.
Im not an animal in a cage, she says.
I got water in my mouth and was like, Oh, its salty!
I didnt expect that, she says in an almost childlike tone.
Blanchard hopes she can go to cosmetology school later on to become a hairdresser.
(She had spent an additional year in a half incarcerated waiting for trial.)
I dont want people to follow me because of the crime that I committed, Blanchard says.
I dont want to have fans because they feel like what I did was right.
When she was released in December 2023, Blanchard believed that she could and would live a normal life.
And then, she says, I started to understand that is not reality.
Instead, her reality is much more complicated.
Its why, she says, she felt compelled to tell her story in full.
(Her mother, for instance, subjected her to endless medical procedures for diseases she didnt have.
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All the while, Dee Dee was godlike to her, her sole caretaker who was always hovering.
Gypsy-Rose will never find true love, Blanchard claims her mother would tell her.
Gypsy-Rose will never find happiness.
The memoirs release comes at a time of radical change for Blanchard.
And even cutting the grass or taking out the garbage, those are the things she couldnt do.
Since her conviction, shes appeared onThe View,Dr.
Phil, andThe Kardashians, with boththe CutandSlatedubbing her Americas sweetheart.
In the process, shes become a polarizing figure.
The memoir is also getting review-bombed on sites likeGoodreadswith one-star ratings before anyone has read a page.
Its not like I look back on my past and am proud of what I did.
DEE DEES SCREAMS STAY with Blanchard.
So does the total silence that followed the murder.
To this day, I have never seen [the] crime-scene pictures, she tellsRolling Stone.
I heard her scream, but the aftermath of what happened is unknown to me.
I started to think if nothing happens, how old will I be until this stops?
Will I be in my forties?
Will I be in my fifties?
That was the moment when I was like, OK, something needs to happen right now.
Its not something that happens and then you just go back to your daily life and youre fine.
Its something that doesnt go away.
I heard from her brothers, her sisters, that she was kind of the black sheep.
She didnt just quite fit in, Blanchard says.
There were certain aspects of her personality that were manipulative [and] controlling.
So it just very much went undetected.
This is gonna sound a little harsh, Blanchard says.
But I think the greatest lie she ever told was that she loved me.
Its dark, but its hopeful.
(A resentencing hearing for the brothers isscheduled for January.)
I feel like they have paid their dues to society.
Thirty years is a long time, Blanchard says.
Im one of those people that feels that they did their time for the crime.
Let them have their freedom.
Nobodys ever come up to me with anything negative to say, Blanchard says.
Blanchard maintains that she doesnt see herself as famous and never sought out attention.
Blanchard knows that some people will never let her live down her sins or the sins of her mother.
Ive found that not everybody forgives.
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Its how it is right now, she says.
I dont think the public will ever let me fade into obscurity altogether.
I think there will always be curiosity about what Im doing in my life.
And I have come to accept it.
She eventually wants to get her own place and be closer to Urker, who lives in New Orleans.
Blanchard is also taking drivers education, which terrifies her.
I need to be responsible enough as a mom to do that.
Whether its on TikTok, the book, or her nightmares, her mothers murder remains.
In essence, this [book] is for her.
This is so she can have a place of comfort that is safe for her.
is constantly what Im asking myself, because Im trying not to look back, she says.
Im always like, This is what happened.
Now, what do I have to live for?
