As it turns out, I am half-right.
Thats when I realized how powerful ayahuasca could be, she adds.
And in my songs, Im just putting things together, connecting the dots.
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But for Blake, thats beside the point.
This is my art, and this is how I express what I go through, she says.
Im never telling anyone what to do I never say in the song, Hey, dont use antibiotics.
You do you, boo-boo.
My music is for me, and Im just putting it out.
Shes also among the most reviled creators on TikTok.
I have a lot of artists I love.
Theyre all gonna be reflected in my music.
Thats what music is.)
One recurring comment alleges that her father works at the military defense firm Lockheed Martin.
She doesnt know where that particular rumor came from.
The first time I saw it, I didnt even know what Lockheed Martin was, she says.
Me and my best friend had to look it up.
Its a gun company, right?
And if somebody hates me for that, thats not my responsibility.
Given the amount of notoriety surrounding her online presence, Blake rarely gives interviews.
I venture to be really particular with what I put out about myself, she says.
Theres so much thats being said about me constantly.
She had a deeply fractious relationship with her father, who she says she no longer speaks to.
I was very angry at him for a very long time.
Im older now, so Im like, I forgive you and I love you from a distance.
But I dont get too close, because thats when shit starts getting weird.
At one time, she says, she and her daughter were on food stamps.
There was a point where we were just living off of canned food, she says.
And I was like, this is not the way I want to live.
It was a really cool lifestyle, she says.
And I feel really grateful for that time I got to spend with her.
Then I started singing, and she was like, That was actually really good.
I didnt even know you could sing.'
There are aspects of Blakes music that have stayed consistent since she started out.
And she still sings in the same girlish mezzo soprano, reminiscent of an indie musician at a coffeehouse.
Ur support means the world to me.
When asked about this, Blake denies that she changed her style over the years in any significant way.
Its also the one critique during our conversation that she refuses to engage with.
Ill just leave it at that.
Only like 1,000 people liked it or something.
But everyones like, this is what you signed up for.
Everything you do on a mainstream level is gonna get just as much hate as it does love.
And I have a go at focus on the love, not the hate.
[If] people hate you or love you, its really none of your business.
And I always thought that that was kind of a cool concept.
It helped to hear.
I love the people who love me, and I love the haters, she adds.
Theyre great, and theyre a part of the whole thing.
