Ive shed enough tears and I cant waste my energy on negativity.
It made me realize, damn, I dont deserve this, Martin tellsRolling Stone.
Honestly, I dont really know how to feel.
Kaylor MartinJocelyn Prescod/Peacock
After being wronged, I still think he is an amazing person.
That setting is very different from the villa.
I didnt expect Aarons relationship with Daniela to be so consistent and romantic and it caught me off guard.
So coming out and watching it, I learned that wasnt true.
It was always deflecting.
I needed time to process this.
He actually asked me, Do you want to just say that were officially done?
and I was like, It doesnt have to be that dramatic.
I think maybe he also agreed to end things because he knew that he didnt tell me absolutely everything.
We hung out multiple times and in Los Angeles when we got out of the villa.
After you broke up, you spent time together in New York City a few days before the reunion.
What were those interactions like?I got to New York one night after him.
I flew in early just to see him and Liv [Walker] before the reunion.
I was like, Youre upset?
How do you think I feel?
It was a lot of deflecting.
I was still going to hold him accountable.
But I was also probably going to mention that I do really care for him.
What have you learned about yourself after leaving the villa?
I deserve a guy who is willing to give me that, even if its hard to do.
I have no feelings for him.
When you have love towards a person, thats not how it works.
It would be a way easier journey if it did.
Have you spoken to Aaron since filming the reunion?No, I havent.
I did send him a text saying,Best of luck to you.
If he ever needs anything, he can reach out to me.
But I dont really have any interest whatsoever.
Ive been through enough with him.
Maybe years down the road, who knows.
I cant have any future expectations.
Well see what happens.
You said you werent mad at Daniela for her interactions with Aaron in Casa Amor.
She didnt owe me anything.
It was going to be towards Aaron.
However, I think she does know I dont appreciate that she lied to me.
But ultimately, in the bigger picture Aaron should have told me because we had that connection.
Its not Danielas fault.
Would I have appreciated it if Daniela would have told me?
But she didnt and Im not going to harp on that.
I said I would have appreciated it [if she told me] and she acknowledged that.
She apologized to me and we ended on good terms.
Is that true?I dont know what that was about.
We actually didnt start on time because there was a power outage in the building we were filming in.
I dont even think that person works for Peacock or works forLove Islandor [production company] ITV.
I just know that Liv and I probably will move in with each other.
Were just going to travel and see where life takes us.
We both love New York City.
But there should be many things coming, Im sure.
Are you open to doing more reality television?
Would you go back toLove Island?If it was a different experience, maybe.
Probably not anytime soon, unless Liv and I could walk in as bombshells together.
But I think I need a break from reality TV.
