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He was my everything.

Buku Abi; R. Kelly

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I didnt know that even if he was a bad person, that he would do something to me.

I was too scared to tell anybody, she adds.

I was too scared to tell my mom.

And even up until now I struggle with it a lot.

I am well aware of who and what he is, she said at the time.

I grew up in that house.

My choice to not speak on him and what he does is for my peace of mind.

And for MY healing.

I have to do & move in a manner that is best for me.