LEER EN ESPANOL
TINIstands in front of the mirror, staring at her reflection.
She picks up a strand of her brown hair and stops for a few seconds to gather courage.
Sobbing, she grabs a pair of scissors and starts to cut.
Its not like she had been pretending to be someone else under the spotlight before this album.
She went through anxiety crisis and with that, panic attacks.
Onstage in Barcelona back in June 2023, she opened up to her fans.
Thank you very much.
But commercial and professional success is no guarantee of happiness.
[But] behind closed doors, I was deeply sad, which became something I couldnt handle anymore.
She was then diagnosed with depression.
[In that state] thoughts are not something you might explain.
Its a mental problem that you cant handle with your mind, she reflects.
I wish it were that easy with depression, but its not.
The healing process is not linear, and after taking this first step, it all went downhill again.
Her head was racing, and she didnt know how to silence it.
There were days when she was so paralyzed she couldnt get out of bed.
She couldnt make sense of anything, not even her own life.
But it was easier said than done.
Without realizing it, Tini was expressing her feelings through her hair.
I think I changed the color eight times, she recalls.
It was really crazy to see how it represented the process I was going through.
It was the most visual thing ever.
I feel like that represents the way everything grows back, everything starts over.
Thus, she found the guiding principle for her next EP.
Something deep down told her it was necessary.
Altogether it took her three months in the studio and almost another three to fully develop the concept.
The process was so fast and intuitive that uncertainty only hit her days before its release.
She had never been this honest with her fans.
I am opening my heart.
I am telling a big part of my story.
I am being greatly exposed, she thought to herself.
And yet, she understood there is some power in being vulnerable.
She sang to her father, friends, and herself.
And it was, above all, dedicated to Martina.
I talk a lot to myself in the album.
I talk a lot to that little girl, that teenager, the woman I am today.
I dive into very profound themes instead of telling a love story.
I believe we didnt visit some places because they were irrelevant.
Some fans would tell me their life story.
Those were some very personal chats in which everyone wanted to open their hearts.
I think it was an album that unintentionally encouraged that a little bit.
Dont compare your emotional process to mine.
Some might take four months, three or five years, she says.
Whats important is to understand that you want to keep giving yourself all the necessary opportunities.
Continue being honest with yourself during the process and be true to what is happening to you.
TINI also advises prioritizing and giving yourself the right amount of space to get back on track.
This is not a race to see who gets first.
Its a long-distance race that takes as long as it needs.
The making of the album was a period of introspection and deconstructing concepts deeply rooted within her.
She understands you could be at the top one day; you could be at the bottom the next.
I think a persons greatest success is the love you choose to surround yourself with.
After that, sharing whatever accomplishments you have with somebody else, she reflects.
I think the real and greatest success is to have true love.
I believe you cant buy that.
Throughout this interview, TINI mentions her friends repeatedly.
This is because, she says, she has found true happiness with them.
So, what is happiness for Martina?
Her group of girlfriends have known each other from a very young age and seen each other grow.
TINI makes it clear that her adventurous and daring personality does not include regret.
She describes herself as a soul totally devoted to living.
When you learn the most is by making mistakes, she says.
The easy way of not making mistakes…
I dont think I have that personality.
Otherwise, the singer says she is still learning how to set boundaries and understand herself.
She was sick and still hadnt taken off her wig.
She starts talking about a new series shes going to be a part of soon.
Its been 10 years since I acted, she says.
When you are in a set, you feel all the shared energy.
We are all making a project.
Each character is important, and we are all equal.
The last time she played a big role on television wasVioletta.
However, the singer now has the tools she didnt have before to help her cope.
I feel free, and I think that is priceless, she states.
I dont want to let me down, and I think thats what matters the most.
PRODUCTION CREDITS
Executive Producer:ALEJANDRO ORTIZ.
Photography Assistant:MANUEL GOMEZ GONZALEZandMARCO ORNELAS.
Art and Production Design byLUIS ROJAS LUINO.
Production Assistant:DIDIER MOLINA.
Styling Assistants:MERY WHITEandCARMEN MARTINEZ.
